Weigh-In Week 53/54/55/56

Week 53 - No Weigh-in (South Africa)
Week 54 - No Weigh-in (South Africa)
Week 55 - 5.5 lbs (2.49 kg) GAIN!
Week 56 - 3 lbs (1.36 kg) GAIN!

Awards this week:

 

Greatest Loser 2012 for my Group.
This is a pretty cool award! I'm a massive L O S E R !

Started at 28 stone 13 pounds (405 lbs / 183.71 kg)
Currently 18 stone 1 pound (253 lbs / 114.76 kg)
1st Short Term Target 26 stone (364 lbs / 165.11 kg) (Achieved this 18/04/2011)
2nd Short Term Target 22 stone (308 lbs / 139.71 kg) (Achieved this 04/08/2011)

3rd Short Term Target 18 stone (252 lbs / 114.31 kg) (Achieved this 08/12/2011)

4th Short Term Target 16 stone (224 lbs / 101.6 kg) (hope to reach this by 29/03/2012)

Long Term Target 14 stone (196 lbs / 88.9 kg) (hope to reach this by 30/06/2012)

The losses have gone as follows:

Feb11 (4wks): 17.50 lbs (7.94 kg)
Mar11 (4wks): 15.50 lbs (7.03 kg)
Apr11 (4wks): 15.50 lbs (7.03 kg)
May11 (5wks): 18.00 lbs (8.16 kg)
Jun11 (4wks): 17.00 lbs (7.71 kg)
Jul11 (4wks): 10.00 lbs (4.54 kg)
Aug11 (4wks): 19.00 lbs (8.62 kg)
Sept11 (5wks): 14.00 lbs (6.35 kg)
Oct11 (5wks): 6.50 lbs (2.95 kg)
Nov11 (4wks): 13 lbs (5.90 kg)
Week 43: 6 lbs (2.72 kg)
Week 44: 1.5 lbs (0.68 kg)
Week 45: Maintain
Week 46: 2 lbs (0.91 kg) GAIN Various Celebrations
Week 47: 8.5 lbs (3.86 kg) GAIN Christmas
Week 48: 6.5 lbs (2.95 kg)
Week 49: 7.5 lbs (3.40 kg)
Week 50: 1 lbs (0.45 kg) GAIN
Week 51: 6 lbs (2.72 kg)
Week 52: 1.5 lbs (0.68 kg) GAIN
Week 53: Holiday in South Africa
Week 54: Holiday in South Africa

Week 55: 5.5 lbs (2.49 kg) GAIN

Week 56: 3 lbs (1.36 kg) GAIN

Really dissapointed with myself and my current weigh-ins. Obviously they due to me not sticking to plan, and there are some "excuses" (Karen is away and I'm an over worked, tired mommy and daddy trying to eat sensibly, cook 2 meals a night, feed all of kids and me, get everyone in and out the door for various activities, trying to stay sane while missing my wife, who has been 1 of my biggest suports over the last year while still suffering cravings for heavy SYN foods that I induldged in in South Africa), BUT I really do know better than to shove that junk food into my face and simply need to get over this, keep focussing on my exercise and how much better and easier it is when I'm not shoving junk down my throat! It's so frustrating to KNOW this, and I kick my butt mentally every time I go out running and cycling, thinking: "YOU IDIOT! WHY OH WHY DID YOU EAT THAT HOT CROSS BUN, OR CHOCOLATE, OR CRISPS, OR BREAD, OR PIZZA!!???" Yip I even ate 3/4 of a Large Dominoes Pizza!!??! WHAT HE HELL!? WHY?

So the gains are deserved, and I can't make any empty promises that this week without Karen (who is now in South Africa at a family wedding), is going to be any better! And I know Steve doesn't want to hear me say this, but I am trying! He thinks trying is unacceptable, I must simply DO! But If it's Do or Fail and no Trying, then I'm currently FAILING, and if I'm failing, I might FAIL every meal all day, at least when I am trying, I am only failing 2 or 3 meals in the week, or snacking wrong! So I refuse to just FAIL...instead i choose TRYING!

Positives and Negatives of the last four weeks:
+ I had an amazing holiday! As many probably know, not being able to fly home to see my Dad is what sparked this weight-loss and the sense of accomplishment of getting on a plane and spending 2 weeks in South Africa with him and my Mom and the rest of my family, was an amazingly emotional HIGH!
- Ive had 2 bad weeks since getting home, but at least I'm spending lots of quality time with the kids! :)
+ Winning our groups Greatest Loser 2012 is awesome. About 3 or 4 weeks in to my Slimming World Journey I met and read about a guy, Ian Hutchinson, who was 5th or 6th? in the National Greatest Loser Finals 2011. He was very good at journalling his journey which was very similar to the journey that I was hoping to travel at that time. I was inspired by him into BELIEVING that this was possible! Now a little more than a year later, and about 3/4 of the way to my goal, to win even just my local Groups Greatest Loser 2012, reminds me how similar my journey has already been to Ian's, and how if I simply hold on to that belief and keep my focus, how close I am to achieving that Goal weight!

Goal for this week (Only 1):
1) Survive with my sanity in tact, and hopefully with either a maintain or a small loss so that when Karen is back I can get back on track, find my MOJO and lose all that I have recently gained, and move forward and closer to that final goal!